I have never, ever been as fully involved, heart and soul, with a fandom as I was with Buffy and Angel.
I've let other ones come and go but I think - I think I put a little wall around me, so that losing shows doesn't hurt quite as much as it did when Angel was gone. I mean, when a show that is that amazing, that wonderful, gets canceled - how can other shows that aren't quite THERE meet it?
So now I put things in compartments. I love this show for the show, I love another show for the fic, a third show I like the non-fic commentary on...but nowhere do I just shift in all the way and let every bit of it wash over me.
Nowhere do I want to spend the day after a show frantically checking my flist to see what everybody else though, listening to and sharing detailed discussions of characterization, reading fic of *all* sorts, not a sorta mythical/hypothetical OTP ...
So I think I'm saying - I'm with you, and I don't know how to fix it either. Part of me wants to, because I want to feel that intense obsession again. But a lot of me is scared.
And then part of me goes - hey. I love these other shows. But they're no Jossverse.
I'm wondering what will happen when his new show comes on the air. Because if anybody can break through to me, it's Joss.
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Date: 2008-01-29 10:22 pm (UTC)I have never, ever been as fully involved, heart and soul, with a fandom as I was with Buffy and Angel.
I've let other ones come and go but I think - I think I put a little wall around me, so that losing shows doesn't hurt quite as much as it did when Angel was gone. I mean, when a show that is that amazing, that wonderful, gets canceled - how can other shows that aren't quite THERE meet it?
So now I put things in compartments. I love this show for the show, I love another show for the fic, a third show I like the non-fic commentary on...but nowhere do I just shift in all the way and let every bit of it wash over me.
Nowhere do I want to spend the day after a show frantically checking my flist to see what everybody else though, listening to and sharing detailed discussions of characterization, reading fic of *all* sorts, not a sorta mythical/hypothetical OTP ...
So I think I'm saying - I'm with you, and I don't know how to fix it either. Part of me wants to, because I want to feel that intense obsession again. But a lot of me is scared.
And then part of me goes - hey. I love these other shows. But they're no Jossverse.
I'm wondering what will happen when his new show comes on the air. Because if anybody can break through to me, it's Joss.